The One

Who is the one for you? I now know it isn’t me.

I wasn’t the one who made you forget, and didn’t even realize it, about everything for which you had ever wished in someone. The one who you always wanted around as you had never done prior. The one whom you missed until we were together again. The one which you would fight against the demons.  The one you never compared to another that came before. The one who you felt comfortable with in your space as no one else ever seemed to fit. The one you would forgive for the many times they would hurt you because you loved them that much. The one you would believe would be yours for the rest of your life because that was how it felt it should be.

You were that one for me.

Why you came into my life still in love with your past I will never understand. Why you lied about your feelings on the past and it being no chance ever again, when, all along if given the word you would be gone in a flash, as you did. Why would you say you were looking for home when you were lost and just looking for temporary housing with anyone that would allow you space in their heart? Why would you claim to know so much about love but not recognize your substitution of it for fear of being alone?  Why would you try so hard to fake true love? 

You see, true love cannot be faked. Lies of loving someone always come to be revealed as either you don’t love them as you say or you are wishing you did. You can’t pretend true love hoping that it becomes what you wish. True love cannot be replaced in a few weeks or a month. In the end, we always see one of two things; it was real true love and we are home or, it was all a lie and you are now with the next one hoping it will be.